Excruciating Suffering: A Personal Fight Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden sensation bloomed behind my right eye. It was followed by rapid shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the discomfort eased and then came back with greater force. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP finally sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically start with intense pain around one eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more often affected. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, severe pain focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the figure dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several causes, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Still, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing records suggest bizarre treatments for what modern observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a separate condition, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a European physician who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery that delivers blood to the brain. Leading experts in treating the disorder note this.

In 1998, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such advances, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer guided me through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack passed.

National guidance on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the attacks of well-known individuals.

But consultant specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the bout determines the treatment.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are handled with abortive treatment alone. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

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Lori Johnson
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